Torment Within

The swell of confusion and emotion

to cry, to sing, to shout for joy.

oh God do I ask too much?

Do my blind eyes fail to see the blessing

pouring from above,

Or am I just not seeing the joy

that is before me?

Have I turned my eyes away from what is so clearly there,

boxing in the most High God,

Have I put the boundaries of my finite mind

on the landscape of my life?

Oh God I seek You,

your Will,

your Way.

Why is it so difficult to see how You desire me to go?

Is it faith I lack?

Do I not realize the providence of Your presence in my life,

these burdens I carry reek of worldly claim

for they are not from you.

but how do I lose these chains that are drowning me?